Phoenix

His mother told him many times
   a bird most striking had appeared 
   in the window at his birth,

How calm she felt the last hard push 
   which shot him forth into the world,
   as red and yellow feathers flared.
... In the woods, the fire burnt out, an old man left the child there with tales of gods aflight. The boy had felt the ashes, cold, startled at some thrashing wings, seen glints of color in a tree. ... His guide was pointing to three birds, flying through a sulfurous cloud at craters's lip where they fell dead; The hiker sensed a whir and saw at vision's edge a brilliance fleeing molten rock. ... On his walls were pictures -- quetzal, peacock, red macaw, golden pheasant, scarlet ibis; His questions lay in ancient myth, memories shimmered through his day, his dreams at night kaleidoscopic. ... She was above him, rouge and gold, nuzzling hair with avian kisses, feathers falling over him, And sang, "Miss you so, love you so!" He felt her answer brush his cheek, his last breath smiled, and then he flew.

Man in Sunflowers

 
He suffered a private madness,
   the question “What am I doing here?”,
   always lurking, clinging,
 
An affliction unrevealed
   to others, friend or otherwise,
   a boring, trite obsession.
 
Corn and wheat sped by,
   muddled worries interrupted
   by a solitary figure in sunflowers,
 
Shabby, in dark hat and overcoat,
   looking, eye level, at a single flower,
   staring, in turn, at the sun —
 
A half-second snapshot
   instantly replaced by more
   corn, wheat, sunflowers.
 
“What is he doing there?”,
   he thought, knowing it
   was already unknowable,
 
Knowing he was neither
   bored nor offended by a
   worthy but unanswerable question,
 
Knowing that he was,
   finally freed
   by the third person, singular.
 

Barnaby’s Thistle

As he walked,
   his hand touched
   a beautiful flower
   and bled.
 
He saw St. Barnaby’s thistle,
   and wondered if
   Barnabas had ever brushed
   against his namesake,
 
And, if so,
   was he
   divinely protected
   from the golden needles?
 
His hand began to itch and
   he thought of Barnabas
   who argued with his mentor
   and was slowly forgotten.
 
In his obscurity,
   did the saint ever ponder
   yellow flowers as these
   with crowns of thorns?
 

Nose

The report said,
        “Mildly deviated septum,
        otherwise normal sinuses.”

He remembered age four,
        excited, impatient,
Standing 3 steps up
        a concrete porch,
Holding a celluloid tube
        of tiny candy balls.

He’d seen older kids do this,
        even sharing once,
And now his chance
        to pry the plug
With wild fingers,
        only to spill everywhere —

His haste-driven dive
        to reverse the effects
Of gravity on plunging spheres,
        found his nose resting
On the sidewalk below,
        where he bellowed bad luck.

Soon, clinging
        to his mother’s neck,
As she wiped
        his blooded face,
He complained only
        about broken fortune.

His nose was quickly forgotten
        for a lifetime,
Until x-rays penetrated
        his memories,
Of sweet loss rolling away,
        yet still desired.

Memory Number One

He was 4 or 3,
at the edge of memory,
When he saw a dead possum
in the road.

For 80 years it visited
his thoughts;
Nothing before —
not a mother’s loving gaze,
not a father’s good cheer,

Just a tail carelessly touching
a bloodied nose,
And two button eyes, staring
at god, at him,
at nothing.

Egg

Egg tottering,
        nest ruptured by careless wind,
        future flight’s dashed promise,
        embryonic wings unformed.

Bird ghost’s
        first and last airborne arc,
        parabolic to slate below,
        shattered shell and yellow stain.

Surprised child
        stops, curious, then home
        crying in fear, chased by
        angry mother cawing grief.

On Yellow

Despair of yellow if you wish —
The taint of 
   choleric bile,
   Midas’ daughter,
   snow pee,
   jaundiced eyes.
While Orpheus’ golden lyre 
      went to Hell and back,
   sunlight echoed on dayend clouds,
   towheads ran on Baltic sand,
   dandelions colored my hand.
Jacob’s stairs still ascend 
   — presumably to Heaven —
But who waters the geraniums?

Red, Blue, Yellow

My friend, the under-employed artist, sold photos to the Sunday edition of the paper. Strictly freelance, not a regular job. “Shoot anything but put three kids in the middle, in red, blue and yellow.” The formula never failed. Every Sunday, $25. It paid the rent.